~right here in the corner~: ~deep breath...~

OK... now I'm getting calmer...

my heart is beating like usual... since last night, my heart was beating fast...

seem like all the blood had went up to my face...

my face was really red and hot...

you could say that i almost blow my head off... hahaha...

frankly speaking... i never imagine that this thing will happen this fast...

i though that i need to wait for a longer period than this...
maybe after we graduated and have degree perhaps???
wah... am i really gonna wait for him that long??? (I WILL)

i told you before that i do have problem in believing people...
i might look that i believe the particular person but i actually don't...
that's why i never feel anything when my previous relationship tear to pieces...
because i never have feeling in that relationship...
I'm just playing along...
just to have someone at my side...
i never trust a love is forever because someday,
it will only end with commitment and there will be no love left...
I'm fragile... you know i am...
that's why i turn out to be like this...
i accept to have a relationship because i know it will be just for a while...
i always remind myself about that...
so i will not hurt later on... and thoughtfully it work!!!

the reason why i said that you are my first...

even i have been in few relationships before...

it is because my previous relationships were never true...

i never pour all my heart in it...

i never fight for it...

and i never regret because i have done nothing that should be regret for...

but you, young man... (ccceeewwwaaaahhhh)