today... i went through the website with all the upu information...
i keep thinking about how eager i am to continue my study...
and furthermore... the intake will be in next September...
(tangan dah gatai nk isi borang nieh) =P
but there's a lil problem here...
i don't know what course to choose...
should i continue in communication???
or should i get into education???
or what i really want to exact???
tell you the truth... I DON'T KNOW!!!
i am not sure with what i like anymore...
what i want to do right now is go with the flow...
but i want challenges... still... i have limitation...
and i never able to go beyond that limitation...
(my family limitation... i know they are important)
before this, my parent can live their life as they wanted it to be but why not me?
why i need to back off and conform with their needs???
i never can answer that... since I'm tied up with the limitation they set for me...
~leave this behind since i don't care anymore... getting tired of fighting what i want because they never listen~
so... if i choose to persuade in communication,
my family sure will go against it because there is no guarantee jobs at the end of my degree later...
and they are not sure about the job scope that i can apply later...
well... don't ask me... because i'm not sure myself... hahahaha... it just i like to talk... =)
i guess... i should put this thing aside?
in education???
my mother will give me two thumbs up and my dad and so does my brother...
they will surely be right behind my back...
but don't you think it will be boring?
playing safe all the time... i don't like to play safe... =(
but as i said just now... i can't fight... 3 against 1... hell NO i will win...
they have been deciding my path and my lifestyle since i was a kid...
i admitted that it is for my own good but surely that i want to decide for my own and take the full responsibility if anything happen...
~an english teacher or an english lecturer~ can you guys imagine me in 1 one of these?
i just have no other choices... obviously i need to choose education...
well... but this time i will not apply too far neither too near from my house ... (kuantan is a NO-NO)
still... wish can get into the same place with HIM... (gatai)
i guess this is all for now...
about deciding where to apply...
maybe next time i will come with a full list of which IPTAs that are hanging in my mind...
2 comments:
u used to told me that u want to further in psychology something right?
but u're also good in teaching/education~ :)
yeahhh... i did...
but my family don't really like the idea...
=(
thnxxx ieqa...
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