~piss off~

suddenly this thing happen...
i thought that "i'm cool with it" but apparently... I'M NOT!
what the hell?
oh my!
can't you just grow up babe? trah! come on...!
i am so DAMN allergic to those who keep dreaming and bragging bout their fantasy life...
urghhhh!!!!
why even when i'm piss off...
i think about other people's feeling???
DARN IT!
i should be a JACKASS for my own good...
i am a normal human being...
I AM!!!!!!!!! CAN'T YOU SEE IT??? OR YOU ARE TOO BLIND WITH YOUR SO-CUTENESS BEHAVIOR???
and i guess... as a normal human being... it is normal to get jealous... isn't?

hurmmm... i might get a little overboard...
but i can't help from preventing myself from feeling jealous...
i know that i have no legal relation with him yet...
and i never can ensure about our relationship...
it is still new... how long can it last?
i don't want to be overprotective... i don't want to get jealous...
and mostly... i don't want to hurt myself... just because of the worthless brat!

i'm sorry my dearest friends...
i know that i should't do this and feel this and get this mad...
it seems that i'm drowning too far in my "lovey-dovey" relationship....
i am too attach... i shouldn't be isn't?
i should control myself right?
i shouldn't forget about you guys...
i'm sorry... i can't be perfect...

* at the end... i am just satisfying other people and not myself... :(