Confusing

I just don't understand myself anymore. I don't know what I want and I really feel. I feel lifeless... And I wonder why. I'm not pretty sure either I'm happy or not. What I know is I'm not faking my expression but I can't feel the emotion. I felt numb. I'm so confused. I feel very sad now because I can't figure out what exactly in my mind. I try hard to figure it out but it seems like I'm just wasting my time. Seriously....... I feel so numb right now.